THE SUN, THE MOON AND THE FUN

We’ve only just begun.

 My name is Jessica, I prefer to go by Jes, Jesi or JD. I’m a happily married mother of two beautiful children. My husband’s name is Memo and he is my support system and one of the smartest people I know, he helps me with the day to day tasks of owning a small hobby based business and is my helper with anything I need, he’s definitely my partner in this wild ride called life and I’m so happy and honored to have powered through all the trials and great growing pains we have endured in our relationship together. We are going on 11 years strong! 

I started my journey into my awakening right before my first child was born.

 2012 was the crazy year that a lot people say they experienced or perceived life differently than they did before. As it was for me, and I would say the same for my husband. Sure, it probably was the fear that our world was coming to an end, and it kind of sort of did, but I truly feel like the fear awakened a wave a curiosity that we as humans always had.

A spark in the mind of the one, a tiny firing neuron was all we needed.

 If you resonate with the 2012 rise of consciousness/awakening, I think it's safe to say that it was a quick transition into a new kind of peace, a new kind of love that world had yet felt or just had forgotten about.

 It felt like all the hardships I had been through in my teenage years granted me peace and harmony within myself. That new found positivity soon turned into toxic positivity and shame for the natural “dark” emotions and energy that all humans feel to some degree and I just happened to feel them deeply, intensely and with fire. I feel like for me personally it was a façade. I still would speak negatively about people and had a very negative outlook on things, but I was like an addict, I would tell myself that the thing or person that triggered me wasn't worth my time or my peace and find myself in situations where I would be triggered again and the shame would follow and the cycle would continue. Instead of getting to the root of my emotion I would drown it. 

The thing was, I felt so much relief after feeling and releasing the anger and sometimes rage. I liked it and it felt good and that was confusing. I thought "new age" spirituality was suppose to be peace signs, good vibes and high frequencies and not whatever I was going through. And if I hopped on twitter to express myself or ask for some insight, oh boy was I shot down and demoralized for speaking of anything other than positivity, because you create your reality and anything negative that happens in your life is pretty much your fault because you willed it into existence with your barbaric thoughts and emotions. I feel like we can all agree that is true to an extent, of course if you are in a bad mood but you force yourself out the house and you go to the grocery store and you find yourself annoyed with the music, and the lights hurt your eyes, and that same family of 8, somehow keeps getting in front of you and throwing off your shopping flow, of course you don't think you own the store or are entitled to an inconvenient free public outing, just the opposite, you know public places are public and you full expect and embrace those things but today just wasn't the day. Your local grocery store replaced most of the cashiers with "quick checkout" machines so there's only one line for a human worker and you have a week and half worth of groceries for your family of 4 so you kind of have to wait in the long line for a cashier, somehow that same family of 8 got in front of you with their week and half worth of groceries, but you smile and ask them how their day is and compliment the wife on her shirt because it says something funny like "Help, I don't know any of these people and they keep following me" but clearly she's the mother the tribe because all the children are little mini variations of her. Then after you tackle that mission you get in your car just dream about being home and in your bed where it's safe, but 8 minutes away from your safe place, a car next to you, doesn't check if it's safe to merge and bumps into your car leaving a $1700 dent.

Did I WILL this unfortunate event into existence or was a mere coincidence? 

 I believe it was a past trauma coming back to teach me a new lesson, just 6 months prior to that incident, my family and I got into a car wreck, luckily no one was hurt but our family car that we had for 8 years was completely totaled. A lot of love and money went into that car and of course our insurance didn't pay us enough, and that car probably had another good 8 years of driving in it, if it wasn't for that crash. We were all pretty shaken up and I personally had nightmares for months about that accident. I had a small fear about driving, but I was able to keep it from becoming a full blown phobia by driving and forcing myself out the house where driving was apart of the experience. I was so scared. I would internally scream through out car rides but knew that avoiding cars or drives was no way to live. Getting into that little accident eased my fear a bit. Kind of like the universe was like "See, not that bad."

  After deeply adventuring down the rabbit hole that was my own mind, soul and DNA, My shame and confusion slowly into acceptance. Acceptance of the fire in my soul. I was facing my shadow self, or my dark night of the soul. I started to (what I like to call) transmuting the rage, transmuting it back into something positive, things I could be proud of!
I soon realized that everything wasn’t suppose to be all dandy and peaceful, that life has to be ugly sometimes for us to truly and genuinely see the beauty and the love. 

Life is chaos incarnate.

I started dabbling into herbs, essential oils, aromatherapy, candle making and crystals all to help with the uncomfortable transitions of life and to use in everyday rituals for self-love, self-care, altar work whatever else my heart desires.

Working with the elements.

Fire: My soul

Water: My tears 

Air: My breath

Earth: My bones 

Was I to realize that even though my path changed a bit, I was still on way to the same destination.

Each element is the foundation to our realm and the foundation to our magick.

 It all was only for myself for a long time until people started having interests in my crafts. Which led me to finally open a shop, and that shop led me to finally get my own website.

Now, I’m here, and I hope you can feel and see all the love I put into my crafts and the love I have for each and everything that I offer you. 

-Jes